A little midnight snack.

Ah It's midnight...


Not doin much but listenin to snow patrol and iron & wine.
With a half smirked face I write to the blank silence of the night.

Is it normal for me to be particular about what cup I shall drink out of? Seriously almost all the cups in the cupbard are smelly plastic due to the kids. i just want a nice clean brand new tall glass one. And so thats what i did. Bought my own! (we will see how long it lasts)

Today i felt really Lost.
Perhaps thats why i was looking for answers in the wrong places, whos saying theyre wrong maybe just usual. But life is running short in this system, I feel it. If it does come in my life time i hope someone would run to my side and not let go till we get to the other side. Just a random thought.
I have a butt load of pictures I have taken recently from the various walks I've gone on for the bare sanity of my mind. I find myself sitting and staring. You may think there is nothing wrong with that but the fact that I dont know why or what i am staring at scares me. Someone told me i think too much the other day. (how dare them)

Maybe thats why I decided to live in my friend lacey's bed for four days last week and cutt my hair the shortest it's ever been and give it red highlights? i duno, don't ask me.

I like it for now. Long hair has always been my thing so i can garuntee it wont stay like this.
Are you kidding me? I miss the morning light, lounging in bed. Hair spread all over the pillow and my face. i needed something to get me through a change lately and what better way for a women then to cutt all her hair off?


A New Me-
So with this new hair style (pics soon to come)
paired with a leapored print blouse, cute curve showing skirt, fishnets and my patened leather buckle pumps i was looking fierce!
To top it all off a new attitude. (Oh you 've gotta hear this)
I will have finished Highschool by january. And I will be starting College before this summer.
Working part time as an Aquatics Instructor and Lifeguard. I enjoy being constantly surrounded by little kids. I think it's Jah's way of taking care of my needs becuase he knows I want them. But not in this system. Becuase of this winter and the economy, pay is slowing dramatically, meaning I need a second job pronto! I got bills too ya know. I will keep you posted on that one.

It seems like everyone is suffering. People in my cong. are going throught a lot. It makes me sad. But that is why I am so glad this week was our C.O. visit.
Mo is such a warm guy. He makes me laugh. The other day he was telling me that sunday they are gonna bring lunches and by that he meant pioneer steak-aka-pbj's. lol goodtimes!

Oh man there is so much more going on. And I have discovered a lot of amazing music too.
It wouldnt be fair to tell all my mysteries in one story tho huh?
Adios!





p.s. I may be going to help out where the need is greater next year. I am making it a goal even if that means not getting a car first. The group would be going back to El Salvador or Hunduras. So I been getting back to practicing my spanish.